broken

its broken see

useless weekends and late life changes

this week end i was so tired of accomplishing nothing
so i cooked some food (previous post)
and i forced myself to take pictures
but now im kinda glad i did

i hate the feeling of wasting away my days
there are so many things i could be doing
so many talents to develop
so many new things to try
so many things to fail and retry
i will not wast away my days any longer
i will not let myself wither

i must return to my patented plan
"my tri-spherical embarking of epic proportion"
to put it simply "though the name tries to avoid such things"
BODY MIND SPIRIT
every day i want to do something
that improves one of these things
i want to learn
i want to improve
i want to excel
TO STOP WASTING AWAY MY LIFE

lastly Ive finally developed my new years resolution
well besides the cliche losing weight(i must get under 200 lbs)
but i have decided that i want to learn

there are so many people that are now gone from my life
people that had tremendous things to teach me
whether death has stolen them from me
or time has simply taken our lives far away from where they once were
those that i have lost have taken with them the knowledge ive never attained
and knowledge i will always regret passing by

i just want to ask questions
get perspective
understand views
listen to life experience
and learn....... just listen and learn

any who here are my sunset regrets

apple cranberry deliciousnesses

i was bored
i didn't want to waste away my day
so i cooked
it was pretty good
i thought i would share

I'll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms

The first fish I ever caught

It was a blue gill

I was young….

And I was too afraid to take out the hook.

So I let him swim,

While I went to get my friend to unhook him.

When we returned

And reeled him back in

Well he was kinda inside the belly

Of a large mouth bass.

I caught two fish that day

Thanks little blue gill

And im sorry you had to go out that way

This pond is where I grew up

I spent more time here and in the woods

Than I did in my own back yard

Old toys that brought back memories

My brothers shoe that was lost in the mud

That somehow after many years has resurfaced

The place where I caught my pet snapping turtle

We called him turdy

Goodbye childhood

I will miss you greatly

an army of mutant zombie strawberry alien cupcakes ...... with sprinkles

they were delicious

the tragedy of death makes life more beautiful

a good friend of mine
taught me that in capturing
the death of something beautiful
we do not mock or deface that thing
but we capture the life of that creature
for us and those that we love to remember
forever

as I walked onto the ice

slowly so as to test its integrity

snapping pictures along the way

I realized that this creature

Had not died in peace

A pool of blood

Lay almost two feet in front of this lifeless corps

As I walked onto the ice

Slowly so as to test its integrity

I watched the ice to make sure it wasn’t cracking

That’s when I realized this creature

had not died in peace

there were drops of blood

sprinkled all along the ice

red stains ruining the formality

of this smooth brittle surface

as I walked onto the ice

confidently now because of its integrity

I gazed upon this creature

And admired its beauty

I realized that I had never

Seen a goose

So close and so still

And I wondered

How and why

This creature was slaughtered

As I walked off the ice

Camera in hand

Being yelled at by some uppity land owner

I didn’t even care

Because I had completed my objective

I had seen that the tragedy of death makes life more beautiful

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